tHe bOho cHicK v 1.0

I think I'm having withdrawal symptoms.

Oh, wait, let me backtrack on that.

I AM HAVING WITHDRAWAL SYMPTOMS.

Gone are the days when I feverishly hoped with all hope that there would be 27 hours in a day. It seemed then that the whole day wasn't enough to get things done.

Never in a million lightyears has the thought that I'll be bumming around for four months (and counting)entered my mind. As far as my student therapist mind could go, I was busy slaving for the Neuroanatomy thing, and setting my sights on becoming a "reg" student after being sidetracked by fulfillment issues during my freshman year.

And gone are the days when I actually had to turn down events because of my tightly packed schedule, when the only time I could see my family was when they were all asleep. Gone are the days when I ate breakfast, lunch and dinner at Rob, managing a diet which consisted of MSG and Caffeine as the biggest food groups.Hopping from one fast food chain to the next, or worse, buying foccacia just to make sure I have energy to last me through STS.

 Now I no longer need the Papemelroti calendar that I give as presents to my beloved clique, the Phazies, which served as my planner. I no longer need to have Post-its all over my books, countertops and stuff. I no longer need to got to the CAMP library every weekend, fighting for some decent study space with the boisterous interns just to get things done.

 I am as empty as my planner.

When people find out that I am neither studying nor working, it always begs the question, "So, what have you been doing?"

"Saving the environment"

"Finding a cure for cancer"

"Giving humanitarian aid to needy nations"

I WISH I COULD ANSWER THEM WITH THE RESPONSES ABOVE.

But seeing that I am always on my butt, I doubt that they will believe the veracity of my report. So I give them usual answers of a bum:

"Sleeping"

"Surfing the Net"

"Watch non-cable TV"

Sometimes I sense a little bit of pity in their eyes. <SIGH> Yeah, I sound pathetic.

The truth is that although my day is peppered with the stuff I mentioned above , I have been dabbing on to some things that I could not do (due to lack of time) when I was still fully immersed in the pursuit of my academic career.

I have been visual journaling, painting with acrylics, writing a lot these days (start my memoirs), reading books that will help me into some much needed paradigm shifts, studying more of God's word and definintely catching up on my friends back home. It doesn't sound much, but come to think of it, writing, journaling, painting, reading stuff not related to my major, getting in-depth with the Bible, and chatting up with friends were LUXURIES I couldn't afford before!

How many people can say that they are finally doing what they had wanted all along?