tHe bOho cHicK v 1.0

Just came home from combined cell group which was held at Bedok. Soooo tired Lord give me strength for tomorrow. The mooncake tasted great even if i'm not a fan of green tea (the mooncake was flavored with it), I liked the other one better. Then we lit up paper lanterns.

I'm just too tired to write a very chatty post. Ugh... oh yeah we played this game similar to Killer, Killer and the Vampire game this one was called "Who Killed Chang'e?" and I was one of the murderers. The problem was I don't know how to WINK...haha...seriously my mind is in turmoil...so heavy ...I meant my head feels heavy...Ta-ta for now, I just hope I feel much better tomorrow, I meant today...cheerio!

 of SERENADES 

Of course by now you know that Tagalog songs have been floating in and out of my thoughts these days, and this one by Parokya ni Edgar really "haunts" me because this song was my FIRST INFORMAL SERENADE, haha, because:

1. FIRST- technically my first serenade was a SIAKOL song Di Mo Ba Alam? trans. as Don't You Know? (I know, the artists are all rockstars, haha, not your typical serenade songs, eh?) and it wasn't really a LIVE performance.(In short, he wasn't the one who sang, he used the wonders of modern technology-by pressing the PLAY button).

2. INFORMAL- It was not planned, the guy who "led" the serenade did no scheming with my parents, did not go to our house (it happened at the school's large outdoor stage where everyone could see you).

3.SERENADE- There was a guitar player and about four or so back-up vocalists and the guy was just sitting beside me, actually, a little bit far away from me, like maybe two feet.

It was spontaneous, no one really planned it, and I certainly did not want to be serenaded in the state that I was in (background info: I had been crying, my eyes were so red, my hanky was so drenched, and I had just ran away from where the basketball tournament was being held, so I was sweating profusely in my school uniform). The song, Halaga (literally means Worth or Value), was so apt at our situation back then, it was the time where my life resembled a soap opera, and my friends were absolutely loving the storyline. It's kinda funny because this was exactly the state we were in.

Here's the song,

Umiiyak ka na naman
Langya talaga , wala ka bang ibang alam
Namumugtong mga mata
Kailan pa ba kaya ikaw magsasawa
II. Sa problema na iyong pinapasan
Hatid sayo ng boyfriend mong hindi mo maintindihan
May kwento kang pandrama na naman
III.Parang pang TV na walang katapusan
Hanggang kailan ka bang ganyan
Hindi mo ba alam na walang pupuntahan
Ang pagtiyaga mo dyan sa boyfriend mong tanga
Na wala nang ginagawa kundi ang paluhain ka

Chorus:
Sa libu-libong pagkakataon na tayoy nag-kasama
Iilang ulit palang kitang makitang masaya
Naiinis akong isipin na ginaganyan ka nya
Siguro ay hindi niya lang alam ang iyong
Tunay na halaga

IV. Hindi na dapat pag-usapan pa
Nagpapagod na rin ako sa aking kakasalita
Hindi ka rin naman nakikinig
Kahit sobrang pagod na ang aking bibig
V. Sa mga payo kong di mo pinapansin
Akala mo’y nakikinig di rin naman tatanggapin
Ayoko nang isipin pa
Di ko alam ba’t di mo makayanan na iwanan sya
VI. Ang dami-dami naman diyang iba
Wag kang mangangambang baka wala ka nang ibang Makita
Na lalake na magmahal sayo
At hinding hindi nya sasayangin ang pag-ibig mo
VII. Minsan hindi ko maintindihan
Parang ang buhay natin ay napagti-tripan
Medyo Malabo yata ang mundo
Binabasura ng iba ang siya’y pinapangarap ko

Basically, the song is about this guy talking to a girl who's always been crying because her boyfriend treats her like trash. The guy's is asking why the girl puts up with so much drama, always standing up for the obviously jerk of a boyfriend who enjoys making her cry that it has become a habit.Actually when they sang that part of the song, they emphasized the word "PALUHAIN" which means "making you cry", because obviously he (not the one who initiated the serenade) was always making me cry. The chorus says, of the countless times that the guy and the girl had spent time together, he rarely saw her smile or laugh, or just be happy, and he gets pissed off just thinking about how bad the boyfriend treats the girl, the last two lines say that maybe the boyfriend just can't see how valuable the girl is.

The second stanza says that there shouldn't be any discussion, the guy is getting tired from giving the girl a piece of his mind on the relationship, and besides the girl isn't even listening to what he's been saying all along. He really can't see why the girl just can't leave the guy, and the following lines, reveal why the singer is so intent in talking to the girl, he's saying that there are a lot of guys who would love to take care of her and love her, she shouldn't feel anxious that no one else would love her, and besides there's someone who wouldn't throw her love away.

I like the last part, Medyo malabo yata ang mundo, binabasura ng iba ang siyang pinapangarap ko...which means the "world can get a little screwed, some people treat with disdain the one thing that I've been dreaming of, the only thing I have ever hoped for"

So sweet right?

But then, I forgot what happened next.

EXCESS: I RECEIVED MY BIRTHDAY CARD FROM THE PHILIPPINES TODAY>>>post on it tomorrow

           

I was YM-ing with Eysa, Jenny, Tey,and Ate Betty last night and I learned a few things

from Ate Betty

- She will be starting cell group @ Christelle's house

from Eysa

-Malayang Pilipino Band along with some members of their youth band will go to China this September to perform at a Festival

-Kuya Edgar and Ate Tin will be "tying the knot" on September 24 (Eysa says it's great, 'cause September is turning out to be a pretty boring month at least with the wedding on there's an excuse to dress up)

from Jenny

- Bea's brother is pseudo-courting her...uhmm...expressing interest but still unsure...

-my beloved block(BS Occupational Therapy SN2004) has snail-mailed me a b-day card (aww...so sweet) but there's a teensy weensy thing that's been bothering em ever since I found out that the "block profile" thing was just a cover-up for acquiring my address (very subtle, juniper...) methinks I gave the wrong address!

Ayun lang naman, if ever I missed anything then, it would be posted a little later...am doing a write-up now, it's entitled Changing Lenses, something about perspective. Have done the rough draft but I need to refine it more (Yup, I am serious about writing).

Grabe! This song from Shamrock just keeps playing in my head, I think this is from the My Sassy Girl Chun Yang, Korean TV show, an Ariel Rivera original, but I like Shamrock's version better (partly because their debut single Ms. Serious really caught my attention,Marc Tupaz has such a great voice, and he looks great whatever hairstyle he's sporting) and because it has that "rock" side to it.

So forgive me if I am being quite sappy here, oh man! it's already 11pm got BS tomorrow @SUNTEC, anyway...

Naaalala Ka
Shamrock

O kay sarap ng may minamahal
Ang daigdig ay may kulay at buhay
At kahit na may pagkukulang ka
Isang halik mo lang limot ko na

Kay sarap ng may minamahal
Asahan mo pagibig ko'y tunay
At nais ko laging kapiling ka
Alam mo bang tanging ligaya ka

Chorus:
Sa tuwina'y naaalala ka
Sa pangarap laging kasama ka
Ikaw ang alaala sa 'king pagiisa
Wala nang iibigin pang iba

Kay sarap ng may minamahal
Asahan mo pagibig kong tunay
At nais na laging kapiling ka
Alam mo bang tanging ligaya ka?

Sa tuwina'y naaalala ka
Sa pangarap laging kasama ka
Ikaw ang alaala sa 'king pagiisa
Wala ng iibigin
Ikaw ang alaala sa'king pagiisa
Wala nang iibigin pang iba

(repeat chorus)

Wala na pang iba
Wala na pang iba
Wala na.......... pang iba

Kilig! haha...for no apparent reason, so don't get any weird ideas why I'm suddenly humming to this tune...not suddenly actually...

Ayun, I promised to post in tagalog...pero since I also sometimes suck at speaking my "mother" tongue eh, I'll settle on TAGLISH, pero NOT in the Coñotic kind of way, reserved lang yun kay Alexis (haha! peace!)

Haha...ang weird talaga...kanta ng ITCHYWORMS keeps playing on my mind, I know it's rather old pero it's Alexis's fault.

Yung kanta nilang "Akin Ka Na Lang"...maybe because of the weird dream that I had, akalain mo may continuation pa kasi...haay...ibang klaseng LSS(Last Song heard Syndrome) ito, on the other hand di siya classified as LSS kasi di ko naman siya recently narinig...haay..

Akin ka na lang
Liligaya ka sa pag-ibig ko
Akin ka na lang
At wala nang hihigit pa sa ‘yo
Wala nang hihigit pa sa ‘yo (akin ka na lang)

i'm not wistful all of a sudden, ganda lang kasi ng melody (coming from me I doubt that)...chatting with tey now, showing me the lone picture of ezra...her ultimate crush,haha...na wla naman masyadong kwenta dahil naka-sideview...haha...aba...ayun lang...ano ako speechless? nakikinig ako ngayon sa Buses and Trains.Hay naku...

Siempre...sa mga ganitong panahon hinahanap-hanap ko ang mga phazies...

grr...

Looking back on my mere two decades of existence, i think there was every indication of what i had been trying to disprove all these years. i fought it but then it only comes back stronger than ever.

I AM A VAGABOND.

Vagabond in the sense that there is nothing...absolutely nothing PERMANENT in my life. Despite the fact that i have tried to create something lasting in my life whether it be residence or friends, i fail to do so.

 i cannot remember our previous address before we settled in our "ancestral" home in Paranque, in fact the only thing i remember was that it was in Mandaluyong, and i vaguely remember the friends, playmates and aunts and uncles we left behind. my mom would make kwento of tita this or tito that, but all i remember was the time we attended kindergarten,how i would buy sweetened tamarinds at the corner store, and of course the time when i fell into a sewage canal. if the falling-into-canal-as-black-as-adobong-pusit incident didn't happen i wouldn't have remembered it.

 then the time we lived in saudi...ow, man, we moved into different flats i forgot the names of the people we shared house with (because in saudi arabi flats are way more spacious than crampy singapore). our only "permanent" residence was the one in Justina, and when i counted, i just stayed there for twelve years...with some interruptions, like living in saudi, or living at cagayan for two months. when it comes to friends, i am really crappy at that, i doubt that my kinder friends even remember me, you know how some people have this like childhood friend that share their life stories? well, i got no one, i had one, her mom was my mom's friend, and we basically grew up together, we were so close that when i had to stop schooling, she also stopped schooling so we could be together (see if your best friend could top what she did for me !) but then distance drew us apart.

 i don't know but i never seem to have lasting friends, all because we drifted apart because of distance. at high shcool i was a barkada hopper. i could fit with any click whether A-class or even the lower classmen, which kind of stifled intimacy and closeness i suppose, and i never developed lasting bonds with them. Of course we still YM each other and email, but i deeply regret not being able to be there for them during our nights-out,and changing my numbers so often that we lose track of each other. funny, but they lived so near my house that i could just ride a tricyle and visit them but i never came around.

i have different personalities, different names. my parents call me Jay-el, and that was what the kinder classmates and elementary classmates called me. That name is very painful to me, because that name was the diffident, awkward, pimple-infested, obese, insecure me.

At high school I was Elle the party girl, no-holds barred girl, the girl who managed to bend the rules and get away with everything while being at the top of her cohort, I was a wild child then but I got away with it, I fooled everyone, at home I was a (seemingly) good daughter, at church i volunteered and attended everyhting that came up, at school I flourished with excellent grades and a nice record but I had fun, maybe not good fun, but I was enjoying myself so, in the words of Sir Mikee KEBER!.

When i entered the University of the Philippines, i was determined to make things right, to stick by my friends,to establish something permanent in my life, even if i had qualms being an occupational therapist i stuck by my decisions, i became more responisble and i started planning. i saw myself with my friends studying together, doing our internship together, setting up our own clinic, being able to contribute to the Filipino OT community, maybe be in the UP academe, having reunions, being godmother to their children, baby showers, weddings, you name it...just when i thought i had won and settled my personality, just when i thought i had finally succeeded in proving to everyone that YES, I CAN COMMIT TO RELATIONSHIPS TOO, YES, I CAN BE CONSISTENTLY INSANE, YES, I CAN DEFEAT MY SHORT ATTENTION SPAN -

*poof*

 WELCOME TO SINGAPORE!

i guess that's why i find it hard to really establish something in my life, because deep down i just think that it's never gonna last anyway, or i'm just setting myself up for heartbreak if i get too clingy. that's why i set high standards for those who i'll call friends, and my college friends know this,i am very loyal to friends but once my trust breaks (the key word being once) i sever all the ties completely, and i've given few second chances. Why? Because in the past i was never given any second chance, i had to do it right the first time.When i was younger i gave a lot of chances to those who've hurt me, i only ended up getting burned.

 it's like li've been iving a thousand lifetimes all over again, being able to reconstruct your life from scratch, i've gone through the acne-faced dork stage, the brooding-loner-gothic-musician-poet stage, the flirt-slut stage, the prim-and-proper stage, the uninhibited stage, the straight-laced-perfectionist-uptight stage...what else? it's very tiring and sometimes i don't think i can cope with it, i'm like a chameleon, always shifting...different personalities for a different age, different styles, i wake up sometimes not knowing who i am really.

that's why two years ago i decided on the name boho chick because i've lived a very unconventional life. i've run around in cirlces, i know what it is to be a have and a have-not, i have loved and broken my heart, i've been wicked, i've been defeated, i've triumphed, and sometimes i think i've died...only to live again renewed, stronger and better than before.

permanence...

such an elusive concept for me..

the problem is, i think i'm now ready to embrace the vagabond lifestyle that has been my "calling", why? because i don't see myself working in Singapore...i don't see myself (God forbid) growing old here, i can imagine myself somewhere in war torn Africa and helping refugees, i can imagine myself in UK studying whatever that strike me, i can be in Turkey at the souks or at Cuba running an orhapnage, I can imagine myself back in the Philippines building a school for children in the provinces, but i can't imagine myself here. i'm giving myself five years...that's quite a long time for someone like me...

last night, i remembered this song from John Lennon and Paul McCartney, it spoke to me, maybe because, i am singing this song:

IN MY LIFE

There are places I remember
all my life, though some have changed.
Some forever, not for better.
And some have gone, and some remain.

All these places have their moments
with lovers and friends I still can't recall.
Some are dead and some are living.
In my life I love them all.

But of all these friends and lovers,
there is no one compares with you.
And these memories lose their meaning
when I think of love as something new.

Though I know I'll never ever lose affection
for people and things that went before,
I know I'll often stop and think about them.
In my life I love you more.

Though I know I'll never ever lose affection
for people and things that went before,
I know I'll often stop and think of them.
But in my life I loved you more.
I love you more.
I love you more.

duh-uh...

it's quite painful na to hear me gripe and bemoan the fact that i have not my dear Phazies and UnivPhiOccuThera with me or Lee Anne, and RPI peepz or even FIJ peepz...but this is my form of release...haha...

THINGS I MISS:

1. The PHazies!

2. The BlockmAtes...BS OCCUPATIONAL THERAPY BATCH 2008!

3. the FX rides

4. My McDo mornings

5. chillin' @ the Baywalk...good food+good friends+great music+ nice view of the bay = pure  bliss

6. mr. choi's taho and oven baked lapu-lapu cheese melt on rice

7. summit carbonated flavored water in grape

8. jeePney rides...

9. food trip- choi's, baywalk, morayta, OSA CANOPY...wherever baby!

10. GAB 303- oh the memories

11. batcave

12. CAMP AVR

13. CAMP LIBRARY

14. LRC cramming sessions

15. eatin' @ the OUR, miss  ko na ang Unibersidad ng Pilipinas...maging Iskolar ng Bayan!

16. CAMP CANTEEN

17. iced coffee @ CAS CANTEEN

18. ducking everytime i see "chekwa" @ CAS LIBRARY

19. seeing Sir Li sa may RH STEPS...waaahhh...CHEKWA FANS CLUB FOREVER!

20. april, michelle, donna, kenneth,eysa, charm...

21. gulping 5 cups of ganoderma coffee in 24 hours...

22. my independence

23. CCP art gallery

24. laugh trip...

25. walking around supreme court every mornin'

26. TAS trans bus rides...

27. tukneneng!!!

28. bagoong...pahirapan maghanap dito

29. speaking TAGLISH...

30. "FATHEr"...haha...wala lang, space filler....

ayun, just from the top of my head, not really exhaustive...miss ko na kayo...huhuhu....

Ok, so todo na ang pag plug ko dito di ba?

Anyway, let's support our home-grown talent...just contact Pedok (see previous post)

A rundown of UP Film Institute's screenings is as follows:

Aug 1 Tue 2 & 7:30 p.m.; Aug 2 Wed 5 & 7 p.m.
Formula 17

Aug 1 Tue 5 p.m.
Memoirs of a Geisha

Aug 2 Wed 2 p.m.
Dersu Uzala

Aug 3 Thu 5 p.m.
Digital Screen: Trabaho (@ the Videotheque)

Aug 3 Thu 7 p.m.
The Fast and the Furious: Tokyo Drift

Aug 4 Fri 5 p.m.
@ the Videotheque: Ito Ba ang Ating mga Anak

Aug 5 Sat 2 p.m.
Saturdays @ UPFI: Sensual Feelings

Aug 5 Sat 5 p.m.
Saturdays @ UPFI: Hunger for Love

Aug 7 Mon-10 Thu 2, 5, 7 & 9 p.m.
Cinemalaya Independent Film Festival 2006

Aug 7 Mon 2 p.m.
Cinemalaya Shorts Winners: Orasyon; Kwarto; Parang Pelikula; Putot

Aug 7 Mon 5 p.m.
Rotonda

Aug 7 Mon 7 p.m.
Mudraks

Aug 7 Mon 9 p.m.
Cinemalaya Shorts Program I: Orasyon; Parang Pelikula; Putot;
Puwang; Sa Silaw

Aug 8 Tue 2 p.m.
Batad

Aug 8 Tue 5 p.m.
Tulad ng Dati

Aug 8 Tue 7 p.m.
In Da Red Korner

Aug 8 Tue 9 p.m.
Donsol

Aug 9 Wed 2 p.m.
Cinemalaya Shorts Program II: 10:25 ng Gabi; Gee-Gee at Waterina;
Kwarto; Labada; No Passport Needed

Aug 9 Wed 5 p.m.
Cinemalaya Shorts Winners: Orasyon; Kwarto; Parang Pelikula; Putot
(im selling some tickets for this event 50 pesos each!0

Aug 9 Wed 7 p.m.
Donsol

Aug 9 Wed 9 p.m.
Rotonda

Aug 10 Thu 2 p.m.
Saan Nagtatago si Happiness

Aug 10 Thu 5 p.m.
Ang Huling Araw ng Linggo

Aug 10 Thu 7 p.m.
Batad

Aug 10 Thu 9 p.m.
Tulad ng Dati

Aug 11 Fri 5 p.m.
@ the Videotheque: Encore for UPFI Turns 3

Aug 12 Sat 2 p.m.
Saturdays @ UPFI: Lucky Number Slevin

Aug 12 Sat 5 p.m.
Saturdays @ UPFI: Whore

Aug 14 Mon 10 a.m.
Enteng Kabisote 2

Aug 14 Mon 1 p.m.
D'Anothers

Aug 14 Mon 5 p.m.
Dersu Uzala

Aug 15 Tue 10 a.m.
Birhen ng Manaoag

Aug 15 Tue 1 p.m.
Ako Legal Wife

Aug 15 Tue 5 p.m.
The Da Vinci Code

Aug 16 Wed 10 a.m.
Mga Pusang Gala

Aug 16 Wed 1 p.m.
Ang Pagdadalaga ni Maximo Oliveros

Aug 16 Wed 5 p.m.
Wallace and Gromit in The Curse of the Were-Rabbit

Aug 16 Wed 7 p.m.
Over the Hedge

Aug 17 Thu 10 a.m.
Ispiritista

Aug 17 Thu 1 p.m.
Nasaan Ka Man

Aug 17 Thu 5 p.m.
Six

Aug 17 Thu 7 p.m.
Celebrate Canada: La grande seduction (@ the Videotheque)

Aug 18 Fri 5 p.m.
@ the Videotheque: Encore for UPFI Turns 3

Aug 19 Sat
Saturdays @ UPFI: Pangalawang Ama ng Pelikulang Pilipino Tribute to
Vicente Salumbides

Aug 21 Mon 10 a.m.
Exodus

Aug 21 Mon 1 p.m.
La Visa Loca

Aug 21 Mon 5 p.m.
Digital Screen: Cut

Aug 21 Mon 7 p.m.
Premiere: Coup b'Etat

Aug 22 Tue 10 a.m.
Masahista

Aug 22 Tue 1 p.m.
Blue Moon

Aug 22 Tue 5 p.m.
United 93

Aug 23 Wed 10 a.m.
Mulawin the Movie

Aug 23 Wed 1 p.m.
Dubai

Aug 23 Wed 5 p.m.
The Fast and the Furious: Tokyo Drift

Aug 24 Thu 10 a.m.
Kutob

Aug 24 Thu 5 p.m.
Decoys

Aug 24 Thu 7 p.m.
Celebrate Canada: The Saddest Music in the World (@ the Videotheque)

Aug 25 Fri
@ the Videotheque: Encore for UPFI Turns 3

Aug 26 Sat 2 & 5 p.m.
Saturdays @ UPFI: UP Department of History Special Presentation of
Sister Stella L

Aug 28 Mon
Special Film Event

Aug 29 Tue 5 p.m.
Take the Lead

Aug 30 Wed 2 & 5 p.m.
Bunso

Aug 31 Thu 5 p.m.
See No Evil

Aug 31 Thu 7 p.m.
Celebrate Canada: The Far Side of the Moon (@ the Videotheque)

Hey, I know I haven't posted much lately, but there's just lotsa things that happened, that it's gonna take awhile before i can compose myself.

If you are looking for some chill-out time watching indie movies or a blasting concert with fellow Jesus freaks, well, do i have the line-up for you...haha...

UP-COMING EVENTS

WHAT: CINEMALAYA GOES TO UP

"TULAD NG DATI" -directed by Michael Sandejas

Starring the uber-versatile band THE DAWN

WHEN:AUGUST 10,2006 THURSDAY -- 9PM

WHERE:UP FILM INSTITUTE CINE ADARNA, DILIMAN, QC

TICKETS @ Php 50

CONTACT PETER EDWARD DIZON 09175516920

Winner of this year's Full-Length Feature Film,Best Sound and Best Editing.

This film is also a recipient of Balanghai trophy and a Php 250,000 Cultural Grant from NCCA.

for more info on the film click on this link- http://www.culturalcenter.gov.ph/cinemalaya/synopsis/Tula...

So guys, c'mon let's support our own indie film-makers!!!

WHAT:MALAYANG PILIPINO 8TH ALBUM LIVE RECORDING

WHEN:SEPTEMBER 15, 2006 (FRIDAY)

WHERE: FAITH IN JESUS CHRISTIAN FELLOWSHIP

250-B Interior Real St. (F.Cuevas St.)
Pamplona 2, Las Pinas City, Philippines
871-4477; 873-9587; (+63) 920-907-9508

From the worship team that brought you the songs "MAHAL NA MAHAL KITA", "SA PILING MO", HEAVEN IS OPEN", and other powerful songs, come join them for a new wave of praise and worship, free admission.

And watch out for the MALAYANG PILIPINO YOUTH BAND's first LIVE RECORDING on OCTOBER...always check this site for more details.